Hi Judy. i was found dead of a cardiac arrest back in 2011. i was found in my client's basement fallen into a small enclosure. The 9-11 call from my client was dispatched to a fire hall in Ocean Park just on the outskirts of surrey and White Rock B.C. I have all of the documents from the the cpr trainer, the fire chief since they were the first one on scene. The paperwork i have from him explain what they saw and found when they came to my rescue. The ambulance details state that i was dead between 10 and 25 minutes and the hospital report that has taken the time from the 9-11 call says that i was dead for 18.5 minutes from the time that the cpr trainer and his crew showed up until they reported a heartbeat. i died a few more times but that's just part of the deal :) After a time in a induced coma and had no idea who i was who my family and their families were and i was lost i am sure since i no longer spoke English. I only spoke French which was my childhood language. My family called upon my siblings to come and say their goodbyes and help in any way possible because of my condition. My younger brother and younger sister came to be translators between myself, my family and doctors etc. To this day, if i met you today and we bumped into each other somewhere tomorrow, i would not recognize or recall our meeting from the day before unless you stopped me and explained to me where we met and what we were doing and once enough info is shared i will find yesterday somewhere in my head and be able to slowly find yesterday's memory. the longer the time between us meeting again, the longer it would take to find what i know about you but on many occasions, i will simply not recall meeting people if they did not make an impression or a allowed me to make a strong and very positive opinion about that person. If i ran into my family in a mall and they did not say hi dad, i would walk right by them without knowing. I am ok with all of that and i wear a " no cpr " medical alert bracelet so i absolutely live for today and the fact that i did not recognize my children is not something that i would dwell on at all. Ok this gives you an idea why i am called a miracle, an anomaly and that i can no longer try to make family a very big thing in my new life. While on the "sidelines" i was convinced to return here although i did not want to since i had a life that had many very rough spots in it and although I do not have a criminal record, never been to jail since harming others after the life i was put through was impossible and i always volunteered to help the " less fortunates" although physically and mentally, my story was most likely as bad or worst than the people i was helping but i never shared that until my new life was started and today i am sharing this part of my life and i am sure that, that alone has a big part to do with why i was convinced by my 'higher self" and my higher self's superiors " for a lack of better words to get myself back in here. I feel that..... what i went through in my time there on the " sidelines" is more than i would learn here in 150 yrs lol. I just celebrated the 5 th year of my new life on April 02 and had just celebrated my 54 th birthday on march 23 I was suppose to be a vegetable, live under constant care etc etc and for the last 3 years, now that i am able to function quite properly because of my ability to heal myself, i live independently and I am moving forward with the gifts that i have been granted but i am having trouble understanding how to properly utilize my gifts or who i am suppose to share my gifts with. My son in law is a pastor of a Pentecostal church,my daughter is educated and i cannot seem to relate with them on anything and since her mother died last year tomorrow April 13th and that i had played the role as dad since she was 2 I feel that it is time to let her daughter go. I feel the same about her brother who is my biological son but i was never in favor of having kids because of my childhood and his mom got pregnant without my consent and i feel the need to tell him to move on since his resentment towards me because I divorced their mom when he was 3 or 4 and I came in and out of their lives when the mom was having a hard time and spent many years in the same home in different bedrooms just so her kids and herself would not be mocked for the fact that her daughter was a one night stand and that the son was not a 2 way agreement. The private christian school, the church and the Christian beliefs, the christian family etc etc was part of their growing up and it was all a big lie because her mom would not tell them the truth about many of her not so smart choices in her younger years. Today the man at 30 and myself do not communicate too much because of his anger towards me not being a dad like everyone else's Dad with the love, generosity and multiple other
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